eviltoaster19

Hungover and Tired

Mon, 09 Oct 2006 03:18:09 GMT

Well, its been quite awhile since i've written in this. A lot of stuff has happened since my last entry. My mom has been in the hospital for almost 2 weeks now. Shes got a really low oxygen level nad has fluid build up in her leg. Its sad and its hard to go and see her inthe hosptial hooked up to all those things but I know that if I don't go I'll regret it.
I finally met my neighbour across the street a couple weeks ago. Her name is Brittany and shes 17. I met her when I went with some friends to see Jackass 2 (which was friggin amazing! - Can't wait for it to come out on DVD) Since the movies I've been partying at Sara's and at Brittany's multiple times. Its been fun.
Lauren came down for Thanksgiving, it was really good seeing her again. I missed her so much and we had so many great times at the "party" lol. We took pictures of her breakdancing in the middle of the street with her new camera that she got for her BDay. Unforutnatly tho, her camera was being a bitch and it like erased all the awesome pictures. BUT it was still a good night.
So now I'm hungover...All day i've had such a bad migraine. I asked for tylenol from my grandma (whos staying with us until my mom gets outta the hospital) And she FREAKED on me. She started yelling at me telling me that it was her tylenol and that i'm a pill popper and all this shit. I can't stand her being here and her drinking. She gets so cruel and with all that is going on (some of which I haven't mentioned yet), her drinking and bitching and yelling at me is pushing me over the edge. BUT, I'll survive. Well, its 11:20, and even tho i'm extremely sore and REALLY tired, I can't get to sleep, but i'm going to go make a snack and tommorrow I'll write some more stuff.

Later.

More Quizzes......

Sat, 02 Sep 2006 00:14:56 GMT

I'm determined to win the lottery one day

These things are so funny, *laughs*.

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 23:35:32 GMT

I haven't updated my journal for awhile now so I thought I'd do that while I finally have the time. The most thats happened in the past little while is that I helped Alisha mow her Oma's lawn (as boring as that sounds, I actually had a great time), and went to the South Mountain fair and saw ALOT of old friends that I've missed. Since then I've pretty much been hanging out at Leechs house.
I'm excited about next summer (even tho it seems like so far away) because Leech and I are moving to Toronto...We already have a place to stay and everything. Its going to be great! On tuesday Oma is going to take leech and I too the theater. We're going to see Snakes on a Plane. And I get to drive there! ^_^ I'm so excited because I LOVE driving. BUT its Standard and I've never driven standard before so I'm really nervous. But then my mom said Oma might be taking her car (which I'll feel totally comfortable driving).
Anyways, not much is new. I've been extremely stressed lately. For many reasons. One is that I need to tell Alisha something. Stefan (another friend) is telling me I should do it soon before I explode. But its not that easy. Besides, she already knows what I want to talk about...I've mentioned it many times before. Hmm, What else. oh, Another thing is Lauren. Its something I haven't broughten up to anyone for awhile now and Its killing me inside...She knows what I mean. *sigh*...Then theres homelife. Its okay but most of the time I hate it. I just want to get to Toronto now...But unfortunatly I have to wait. Anyways, theres not much more to say so I'll write more after the movie and driving experiance on Tuesday.

5 words

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 22:22:16 GMT

GODDAMNIT I'M SO FUCKING PISSED! Okay, so tonight Ash, Leech and I were supposed to go to the theater. I asked mom like last week to go again and yea well, my hopes were up but she brought them down. Its not just about the movies (i don't care), Its just that she ALWAYS fucking does this. ALWAYSSSSS...I'm so pissed that I could cry, but i won't because, well, crying doesn't solve anything. It just shows that i've got a weak side and well, people WILL NOT see that anymore if I have anything to do about it...grrr i'm too pissed off to write anymore

Another poem I wrote....

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 18:04:48 GMT

So I got off the net last night around 12 and I wasn't tired. But I was in the mood to do some poem writing so heres one I wrote for Leechster:

-Friendship Is Golden-

Finding the right friend,
Remembering the memories,
In good times and bad,
Even frozen with envy.
Nothing tears you apart,
Deceiving can be overcome,
Sharing the laughter,
Having lots of fun.
Ignite in trust,
Powerful strengths,

Issues aside,
Some go to great lengths.

Greatness will increase,
Over time and awhile,
Love gives you hope,
Developing a smile.
Enlisted in my heart,
Never will I forget you.
-Kim Levesque-

Yea, Its kind of a 'thanks for always being there' and 'thanks for being my friend' kinda poem lol.

Song I'm Obsessed With Right Now....

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 03:37:05 GMT

Pink Tux To The Prom

So it was Jeremy in 1983,
In his Ocean Pacific T,
Who got a bloody knee,
On his skateboard,
In the halfpipe,
In the backyard,
That tuesday night.

And I'm only gonna pierce my left ear,
And I've been working on this mustache all summer long,
And my favorite band will always be Tears for Fears,
And I'm gonna to wear a pink tux to the prom.

Cuttin class through the first floor window,
He's drivin fast cause he never did a thing slow,
And I look up to my big bro cuz in the eighties all the ladies grabbed his
hands and couldn't let go.

And I'm only gonna pierce my left ear,
And I've been working on this mustache all summer long,
And my favorite band will always be Tears for Fears,
And I'm gonna to wear a pink tux to the prom, a pink tux to the prom.

Do, do, do-do, do, Pink tux to the prom, [x2]
And I am going to wear, a pink tux to the prom,
Live without a care, what could possibly go wrong.

When you're the president of the Breakfast Club,
And you're not hesitant to fall in love,
To fall in love, to throw it away,
To fall in love with the eighties.

I am going to wear a pink tux to the prom,
Live without a care, what could possibly go wrong,
I am going to wear a pink tux to the prom,
Live without a care cause you threw it away to fall in love with the eighties

Do, do, do-do, do [x3]

Pirates of the Carribean

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 00:24:07 GMT

OMFG, so today I went to the theater with Alisha, Lauren and Ashley. We went to see Pirates of the Carribean: Dead Mans Chest. It was so fucking awesome! Except for the end. Theres obviously going to be a third one, and I'm so excited to see it! WOot! Anyways....so yea it was awesome. Thanks for coming guys ^_^ And thanks for everything you got me Leech!

I'm in the midst of writing Leech the note I told her I'd write her last night. Hmmm...I found out that life is great, but sometimes I just wish something could go my way for a change. Call me selvish or whatever *shrugs*..I mean, I don't ask for too much (well I do sometimes), but something that I really want, I can never have. I wish every night to get it, and I don't believe in god, but I pray almost everynight aswell...I know this all doesn't make any sense what so ever, but this is MY journal and I know what I'm talking about *laughs* Annnnyways, I'm gonna go because So You Think You Can Dance is on and it looks really good. Then i'm gonna have a shower, have a smoke and finish writing Alisha's note. :D BYE BYE!

I Can't Win...

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 20:19:55 GMT

Okay, So i've tried to push my feelings aside and focus on other things. But no matter what I do, these thoughts keep over-powering my mind. I really can't stop thinking about certain things and its honestly killing me inside.
I miss Lauren. and because of my stupidity, I lost her again. I'm not saying it was all me but *Shrugs* Thats what my mind keeps telling me. Last night on MSN Lauren and I were talking. She wanted to know the reason why my sub-name was "Things jsut keep getting worse" and I didn't want to tell her because it would have gotten her more upset then she already was. Why she was upset in the first place, I'll never know. She doesn't tell me much anymore and I can understand that. I lost her trust a long time ago. To make it short, I miss her. And I would love to have her back and be engaged again. Its as simple as that. I miss holding her. I just miss her in general. I didn't want to tell her that last night because it wouldn't change anything except make her (and me) more upset. And seeing Lauren upset only makes me feel worse. And honestly, I just want her to have a good time before she moves.
As for the other reasons why I'm upset...I'll leave them for another journal entry. Lets just say that if I keep mentioning it to a certain person, i'm going to loose one of the best friendsships I'll ever have and that I would not be able to tolerate.
So as for my sub-name on MSN (or what it used to be), things really do keep getting worse. And haven't even written the half of it yet. I've got all this shit bottled up inside of me and no matter what I do of say, no matter how I express these feelings, I can't Win.

But for now I'm looking forward to seeing Pirates of the Carribean: Dead Mans Chest with Leech, Lauren and Ash tommorrow. My mom is going to drive us there and pick us up. And we're going for the 3:10 movie. So Lauren and Alisha, be at my house tommorrow for around 1:00. I'll call you guys tonight anyways just to make sure you get the message.

Things Lecch and I Have to Do!

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 21:06:05 GMT

Things in a Theater:
1-Hum the theme song of the movie out loud
2- Go, "ooooooooh" during the kissing scenes
3- Clep when the good guy gets killed
4- Tell the man selling popcorn that the girls bathroom is flooding
5- Scream out "Hey! This isn't Bambi!"
6- Stare at the person sitting across the aisle from you, then quickley look back at the screen when they look at you. Then when they turn away, Stare at them again.

Things to do in a Mall:
1- Try pants on backwards at the Gap. Ask the salesperson if they make your butt look big.
2- At the bottom of an escalator, scream "MY SHOELACES! AAAGH!"
3- Stomp on ketchup packets at Burger King or McDonalds
4- Test mattresses in your pajamas.
5- Sprint up the down escalator.
6- Ask a salesperson in the hardware department how well a particular saw cuts through bone.
7- Hula dance by the demonstration air conditioner.
8- Rummage through the jelly bean bin at the candy store, insisting that you lost a contact lens.
9- Leave on the plastic string connecting a new pair of shoes, and wander around the mall taking two-inch steps.
10- Play the tuba for change.

Yeah so Leech, We HAVE to do these things! LOL

MEMO

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 20:37:29 GMT

MEMO:

Download song: blink-182 - Stockholm Syndrome

Very Confused.....

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 19:23:28 GMT

Okay, now I'm worried and confused. I'm confused because of the note Leech wrote me. I don't understand whats she's trying to tell me :S And when I bring it up on the phone she changes the subject. I'm worried because it sounds serious...Hmmm. I'm not mad at her for not telling me, i'm just worried and fucking confused *laughs* GRRRRR....I think I've read the note about 30 times now and I dunno...Its like one of those riddles you get in emails and the only way to get the answer is if you scroll down. I keep thinking its one thing, but that would be impossible, so what is it? ...So I have to get her to explain whatever it is she wants to tell me...She says its hard, but what could be that hard to tell a best friend? *Thinks some more....*
Okay anyways, heres a poem I wrote awhile ago, I can't remember if I posted it on here or not, but I'm re-posting it because well, I like it alot and I think its one of the best ones I've done:

Who, What, When, Where, and Why.

How do I understand something that can't be understood?
How do I re-live my past to have a better childhood?
How do I forgive a friend for a mistake she shouldn't make twice?
How do I explain my pain but try to make it concise?

Why does the clock stop ticking and tocking?
Why do I speak when my mouth keeps on locking?
Why does this world feel still when its spinning?
Why do my days have to start at the beginning?

When will I feel good and robust?
When will I stop feeling like I want to combust?
When do I dance and try to feel jubilee?
When do I run to set myself free?

What should I do when I feel all upset?
What should I do when feel some regret?
What is the answer to an unanswerable question?
What is the cure for an uncureable depression?

Who is behind closed doors at night?
Who will tell me whats wrong and whats right?
Who will leave me and who will stay?
Who will impress me and who will betray?

Where should I go when I need a place to crash?
Where will I feel loved and where will I feel like trash?
Where is the sadness that won't go away?
Where is the happiness I want to feel everyday?

Well, thats my poem of the week. Yup, I've decided to add a poem from my book at least once a week. So, I can't think of anything else to say so I'm gonna go!

Friendship Songs...

Sun, 06 Aug 2006 23:24:34 GMT

So Leech, we need friendship songs...so far we only have:

I'm Blue - Eifel 65
Crash and Burn - Savage Garden
Wish You Were Here
You Spin Me Right Round
Pink Tux To The Prom
Behind Blue Eyes
Secret Garden - bruce springsteen

We NEED MORE! lol so start thinking and i'll add them to this entry muahaha.....Oh! Just thought of one *adds*

Charmed Marathon Day!

Sun, 06 Aug 2006 16:03:10 GMT

Well, i just woke up like and hour ago. Its 12:00 on Sunday. Hmmm, so what have i done since i've been up? I watched charmed, at breakfast, read Leechs LJs and now i'm writing in mine, but what should I say?...

Okay, well last night i found the note Leech wrote me. She told me not to bring it up after I read it, but i wrote her back instead. I'm very confused but very curious as to what she means. Hmmm, i'll just get her to write me back.

Yeah, so today Alisha is hopefully gonna come over for a bit and we're gonna watch Charmed all day...then Big Brother at 8! Its gonna be fun. I have to call her actually....so i'm gonna cut it short and write more later tonight or tommorrow.

Here are a couple quizzes that I did:

You scored as Red head. You should be a Red Head!

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Red head

67%

Black hair

42%

Brunette

33%

Blond

Which hair should u have...blonde? brown? black? red? (pics!)
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Alisha and I Are dying our hair black and then bright red!

You scored as Black. you perfect color is black. Although its not a real color, its your perfect and it will always match unless you always wear white. PLEAZE RATE

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Black

71%

pink

42%

blue

33%

red

25%

Silver

17%

yellow

13%

what is ur perfect color?
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Wed, 02 Aug 2006 17:36:58 GMT

Well, its Wednesday. I got back from the cottage on Monday. It was fun, for the most part. My grandma's drinking got to me but I survived. Anyways, nothings changed since I got home. I've beentalking to my friend Sam (who is in Lebanon) and my mom is getting so angry with me thinking that he is a terrorist and all this crap. Hes my friend, i've known him for about 4 years and I'm worried about it. He's been telling me stuff about whats been going on their. They've gotten bombed, babies and children getting killed in hospitals and schools, its horrible! And my moms doesn't want me talking to him. *Shakes head* Shes been yelling at me for the past 20 minutes and Wah, i just can't take it.
Anyways, Alisha moved back home, so now shes just down the street from me. Which is awesome because now we can hang out more and stuff. I went to her house yesterday, we plan on building a batmobile lol. Anyways, pretty much all we did was download music, smoke, have a beer, and download more music. I watched this comic guy (she downloaded him) and he is fucking hilarious!! I can't remember his name but yea. Anyways, hmm, oh Alisha and I made and account for her on here. Her name is Eviltoaster21.
My mom and sister are a little upset with Alisha. Ashley more-so. Ash keeps saying all this shit. But I don't care what ash says because alisha is my best friend and shes been there for me through so much in the past like 3 years. Anyways, enough about that, lets talk about the cottage...
When we first got there we brought alllll our stuff into the cottage. Alisha and I took one room and Amanda and Ashley took another one. Anyways, basically what happened was we watching movies, went swimming, alisha and i went in the dingy alot. Alisha lost her ball, so we took the dingy out to search for it and at some point we thought there was a hole in the boat so we started freaking out looking for it, then we realized that it was just deflating, but while alisha was trying to stop it from sinking, she let her paddle go. So we were sinking and had 1 paddle. Not a good combination, but we made it, alisha fixed the boat and we got the paddle back. That was one of the greatest things that happened up there, it made me laugh alot.
Another thing that happened was we stole paintballs. From my life rival. Taylor and Brandon. They live up there and i've known then all my life, and throughout my life we have always doen pranks on each other. Well, this time Alisha and I went for a walk and we heard them paint balling. Well, we walked past them and saw these pink and red coloured paintballs...we "borrowed" them and bolted for the cottage. Muahahah. So now in my bag i have about 30 or so paintballs. haha.
Amanda ended up leaving after 3 days of being there because she was home sick...Alisha ended up leaving after about 2 weeks, which was awesome se stayed that long. My grandmas drinking was a huge problem, that was the reason why alisha left. My grandma kept putting me down basically the whole time i was there. That was depressing and hurtful and i just wanted to go home, but i had to stay because I had to go to my cousin Chrissy's Wedding Shower. Anyways, i went to the shower and it was really awkward being there with like 50 people i didn't know. I knew my cousin Kaitlin tho, so that was good. We hung out outside most of the time and talked about stuff. We ended up going back to the cottage until monday morning, then we left and i got home and yea, i was back with civilization. ^_^ Anyways, i'm gonna go to Alishas now so i will write more at some point in the near future.

MEMO:
3 songs to download when at alishas:
Love Is A Many Splendid Thing
Here By Me - Three Doors Down
All By Myself - Sy'Ral

More Quizzes....

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 16:03:11 GMT

Here are more quizzes that I've done:

You scored as Michael Myers. You are Michael Myers. You are quiet, and have serious family issues. You wont rest until you kill your entire family, and everyone who gets in your way. You dont really care what you kill with, but you prefer a nice butcher knife from the kitchen. There is no hope for you. There is nothing living behind your eyes but evil.

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Michael Myers

70%

Freddy Krueger

60%

Jigsaw

55%

Candyman

45%

Pinhead

45%

Hannibal Lecter

45%

Jason Voorhees

40%

Leatherface

35%

Captain Spaulding

20%

Buffalo Bill

Which Horror Killer are You?
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You scored as Lesbian.

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Lesbian

100%

Bisexual

70%

Straight

40%

Gay

25%

Are you Bisexual, Straight, gay/lesbian?
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You scored as Inhalents. Sniffing chemicals you found under the sink again? Tsk tsk! This will lead you nowhere, and your high will only last a few minutes, or even seconds. You're breathing in toxins which cause deprivation of oxygen to your brain.Did you know you can DIE the first time you try huffing? Go for somethin else, babe.

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Inhalents

69%

Ecstacy

63%

Marijuana

56%

None!

50%

Cocaine

44%

Mushrooms

38%

Alcohol

38%

What's your ideal drug?
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You scored as Assault Rifle. You are soldier. Or you want to be a soldier. Or you just love military-type firearms. You need assault rifle. M16 or AK-47 will do good.

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Assault Rifle

81%

Machinegun

81%

Sniper Rifle

69%

Shotgun

69%

Pistol

63%

SMG

63%

Revolver

50%

What Firearm Fits You Best?
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You scored as Lust.

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Gluttony

75%

Lust

75%

Wrath

69%

Sloth

56%

Pride

50%

Envy

44%

Greed

31%

Seven deadly sins
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You scored as Not so clean. You're not what I'd call pure, but you're not too dirty. Thats okay... i guess?

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Not so clean

90%

Complete Filth

50%

Pure and Innocent

10%

Pedofile

How dirty is your mind?
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You scored as A little horny. You're a little horny. It takes a lot to get you aroused though it will be all the more enjoyable when you do.

Please rate and comment and tell me what quiz this is when you do!

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A little horny

75%

Normal Horny

69%

Very horny

63%

Not horny

19%

Super Horny

How horny are you? (with pics)
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You scored as Yippy Ki Yay!. Its good to experiment with kissing. Youve about perfected the art of kissing. Its fun to do! For those of you who didnt know, some studies show the bigger the lips the better the kisser. Just remember gentle kisses on the lips, and some tongue, and altering the speed etc., can feel really good too. Here some helpful tips: 1. be ready 2. no smoking 3. start out slow 4. up intensity *for romantic kissing touch the cheek *touch the neck and go down toward back to heat things up 5. develop a rythm 6. change it up 7. pay attention to hands *holding or other 8. experiment 9. respond to partner 10. repeat!

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Yippy Ki Yay!

88%

Romantic Kisser

75%

Your more of a class act than youre giving yourself credit for

25%

How good do you kiss?
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You scored as The Student Dyke. Your entire life is defined by two things: your intellect and your sexuality; moreover you often merge the two to lure in women.

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The Student Dyke

60%

The Pretty-Boi Dyke

55%

The Vaginal-Reference-Making Dyke

45%

The Little-Boy Dyke

40%

The Surprise! Dyke

35%

The Bohemian Dyke

35%

The Femme Fatale

25%

The Hipster Dyke

25%

The Granola Dyke

20%

The Quasi-Gothic Femme

20%

The Sprightly Elfin Femme

15%

The Stud

The Magic Earring Ken Dyke

What Type of Lesbian Are You? (Inspired by Curve Mag.)
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You scored as Stewie Griffin. Congradulations you are Stewie. One of the best characters on the show and the crowd favorite. Because you are stewie you prob are one evil sick bastard.

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Stewie Griffin

100%

Peter Griffin

63%

Chris Griffin

50%

Meg Griffin

50%

Brian Griffin

25%

Glenn Quagmire

25%

Joe

13%

Cleveland Brown

13%

Lois Griffin

Find out what Family Guy character you are. (pics included)
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You scored as Ecstasy. You are Ecstasy (aka: MDMA, XTC, adam...). You are confused, you need everybody's support to feel secure, you like to be around people, you have your own fantasy world you run to every time you feel helpless. You are classified as class (A and B) illegal drugs.

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Marijuana

83%

Ecstasy

83%

Cocaine

83%

What kind of drug are you?
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You scored as Desent human being. You are human. You care about other people and you care about yourself. You just live your life and enjoy it.

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Desent human being

79%

Going to Hell

50%

The Devil

29%

Saint

21%

How evil are you?
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You scored as Monica. The neat freak who would do anything for her friends. You're Monica, not always that popular but everyone loves you now.

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Monica

65%

Phoebe

55%

Joey

40%

Chandler

40%

Rachel

30%

Ross

Which Friend are you?
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You scored as Big dyke!. You are a big lesbian! You love girls, and people know it. You might to like to strutt gay pride, and you could be seen waving a flag at a parade or with your lover holding hands in a public place. You've probably been around a bit, like other lesbians.. you big slut, you.

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Big dyke!

75%

Bisexual

33%

Trendy bi

33%

Straight

33%

How much of a lesbian are you?
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You scored as Exciting. My, my, look at you!

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Exciting

83%

Shy

33%

Lazy

25%

Violent

17%

Stubborn

What are you like in bed?
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You scored as You tend to lock it all away. You tend to lock what you really want to say deep down inside where no one can see. Keeping things secret rather then exploiting it out in the open. These type of people like to hide what it is they are feeling but would rather tell someone who really cares. Once it builds up though it is a continuous cycle of building up feelings then letting them out sooner or later.

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You show people the little bit of you so they can guess the rest

100%

You tend to lock it all away

100%

You hide your feelings by not saying much

100%

You like to express how you feel by writing things down, music, or artwork

96%

You cover them up with false advertisement

50%

How do you like to hide your feelings?
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Mon, 22 May 2006 23:42:00 GMT

Well its Monday and schools tommorrow...Which sucks but oh well. Anyways! I went to Alisha's party on saterday. It was soooo fucking awesome! Poor Tarebear threw up! But Lauren, Tasha, Ariel and I sat with her almost all night. Lauren stayed with her the most tho, which was really nice of her. I would have too but if I didn't keep moving I prolly would have puked also. Anyways...yea there were like 6 people trying to put up a tent. Sara was reading the instructions upside down (which was freakin hilarious)....Before terri got wasted she slipped and fell on her ass (cuz the grass was wet), and then later on Alisha brought out her big cd player and everyone sang! There were like 20 people there. Then later on, Lauren, Tasha and I were like screaming Simple Plan! It was so much fun! WAH! I can't wait to have another party like that. OH! And Ash and I brought firecrackers and we lit them and like everyone (cept Terri cuz she was still sick) were like kicking them around! *laughs* WAH! What a night! Anyways, then everyone ran outta smokes...which sucked for the next morning. I had like one of the worst hangovers in the history of my hangovers lol...but I got over it. My grandma bought me some new pants yesterday too!! They're baggy of course...i love baggy jeans! WOO HOO...and they don't make me look fat either! They are actually very slimming hahaha.
Anyways thats all I wanted to write so i'm gonna go!
Kimmy xox

Sat, 13 May 2006 02:07:13 GMT

Well today i went to the doctors...I'm fine, it was just a checkup. But the people who know about my moms leg and that thing on it (lauren knows) well we found out what it is. Its a tumor. I won't be at school on Thursday because my moms having surgery to get it removed...Ash and I are really scared (we're on good terms again) but its going to be okay.

OH! And Lauren! When you have your party (june 6th ---if i can get to it cuz its on a thursday---u should move it to a friday night lol) then i was gonna buy fireworks...BUT we need a permit or something...lol...i forgot that i can legally buy them now haha! Anyways thats all i can really think of writing...so i'm gonna go.

Kimmy xox

For Lauren

Fri, 12 May 2006 02:10:53 GMT

So i told Lauren i'd write all the reasons why i love her and chose her so here they are (its not as corny as the other thing i said on msn...*laughs and blushes* :

-she makes me feel loved
-shes funny
-she makes me laugh/smile
-shes intelligent
-shes mature
-I trust her with my life
-I feel safe with her
-shes protective (which i like)
-she gets me
-she doesn't care what anyone thinks
-she speaks her mind
-shes confident
-shes caring
-shes sweet
-she doesn't take crap from anyone
-shes cautious
-shes mysterious
-shes why I get up every morning
-she puts up with me
-shes stuck by me through so much
-she fills up the missing piece in my heart
-the thought of her lifts weights off my shoulders
-shes got a great smile
-shes beautiful
-her eyes make me melt
-shes creative
-shes thoughtful
-shes good at uhh...well you know ;) lol
-shes a fighter
-shes tough
-shes a goos listener
-she gives good advice
-she has lots of talent
-shes a survivor
-shes got an awsome personality
-she makes me happy

Fri, 12 May 2006 00:13:12 GMT

I had one of the worst nights of my life tonight. Ashley got me back into seaway and i'm very thankful for that. They (especially mom) kept repeating all the rules about how if i skip or have 1 unexcused absence from school then i'm out for good...I couldn't take the repeating. I started yelling at mom, then Ash got into it and started screaming at me saying that i'm killing mom, that i'm going to give her a heartattack eventually and i won't be able to take it back. I went upstairs did something i shouldn't have and then Alisha walked in. She hugged me and then took the blade away...she went downstairs and told mom. Ashley was there and she started flipping. I know my cutting effects everyone around me. I should have locked my door. I need stitches but i can't go get them because the doctors will send me away...Melissa hates me. I'm ruining my life...almost everyones going against me and all i can do is sit back and watch it happen. The only people who have stuck by me no matter what i've done are the ones i love the most. Lauren and Alisha. I don't know how many times i've hurt them in the past, and yet they still stayed by my side and helped me through...
A wise person once told me that whats in the past is in the past.

I don't know how many people i'm going to hurt with this...mistake that I made...i don't know how many more friendships i'm going to jeopardize... There is only one person who understand why i do what i do...why i act how i act, ...the one who actually makes me feel like i exist in this world. She knows who she is. And i thank god everyday that i met her under that bridge on the ice.

Anyways...Me and mom had a very long talk...surprisingly with no yelling. Ashley went to Alisha's for the night, i just wish i had somewhere to go when i needed a breather for the night. I told mom that. she told me that our relationship is not like hers and ashleys...she told me i'm secretive, quiet, not social with her. Wah i'm crying! I just don't know what to do anymore...

I have to go

so far I' lovin' the 90s ^_^

Sun, 07 May 2006 23:07:35 GMT

Well its Sunday. I got back from Laurens house about 3 hours ago. I went over yesterday and I have so much fun!! Haha..all we really did was watch tv and talk and play N64 and drink later on...I have my discusting wine and Carolyne had her smirnoff...And Elicia was there...(i think thats how u spell her name). Anyways...Lauren and I stayed up pretty late watching the music channel, worlds dumbest criminals, and other random things...I wanted to see that damn Fallout Boy video (even tho I hate Fallout Boy *laughs*) cuz it was on the voting thinger for like EVER but Lauren had to change the channel and I missed it! *shakes fist at Lauren* lol...just kidding, I love you!!! ^_^

Then today Lauren burnt me like 6 MP3 CD's with all over her 90s music! Oh yea, I missed a whole decade of my life LOL, so i'm catching up now. Lol...It was great! So far i'm on disc 1 (The second cd didn't work by the way Laur..Its okay tho!) lol...Hmmmm...So all in all I had lots of fun!!

I'm gonna go cuz my shows on but i'm gonna start putting goals that I want to accomplish within the month so my first major goal is: TO QUIT SMOKING!
Its going to be so freakin hard but i'm really gonna do the best I can....Plus I'd rather spend money on stuff that I actually have wanted for the past like 5 years which is my G2, a car, a computer, to move out, an electric quitar, some sort of gameing thing (like xbox or N64), and so much more!! I especially want my G2 so I can go and pick up Lauren and we can tour around and just hang out and blare the music and go to montreal and hopefully NOT EVER see an old guy in assless chaps again LMFAO...okay i gotta go
Later Dayz

Kimmy xox

Sunday!

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 18:01:43 GMT

Well, its Sunday. The party's over, but it was sooooo fun! Ahhhh. Lol! Alisha, Lauren and Kat came over which was fun and we walked into town and rented a movie, Lauren bought some peach schnapps Mmmmmm yummmmmy and we all got drunk last night and ate chips. LOL we had so many funny moments but I can't remember them all right now...I'll write them in later when I think of them all. Then Lauren and I had a talk last night about how we're "dumbasses"....It was actually a good talk, I learnt new stuff about Lauren and I like learning new stuff *thumbs up*

Yeah so last night we were all supposed to sleep in tents and we had them set up and everything but O M F G! It was soooooooooo cold last night! :O We stayed out there until like 2:30 (Tony came over at like 12ish I think?) and then Lauren and I went inside cuz we were cold! Then we had our fun, I tortured her hehe...I was fun cuz she was so helpless *giggles*....Hmmm OH! And then Ashley, Kat and Alisha came inside (I didn't know this cuz I passed out on Lauren)....Apparently Lauren was able to leave the bed and go talk to everyone in Ash's room without me even noticing, thats how tired i got! HA! Then Lauren said that I went into the bathroom upstairs, walked out, went downstairs and them came back up and went to bed again...I don't remember any of this LOL...Hmmm So yeah, i told Lauren I'd write a list on here about all the reasons why i'm with her, and why i love her so I will....but i need to find my journal (which is under my bed somewhere) and then i'll write it all out onto a new LJ entry. Hmmm OH! This morning, while we waited for Kat, Lauren and Alisha to get picked up we place Twister, it was sooooooo much fun! hehe! Lauren had her camera so we took lots of pictures from last night and today...shes gonna send me them and yayy :D I'll FINALLY have a picture of me and her for my display picture!:D
Anyways, I gotta go, so i'll write more later!
Kimmy xox

I've realised that I love Kingston hahaha....

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 20:47:31 GMT

Yeah so Friday night Corey came and picked Ash and I up to go to Laurens house in Kingston. It was my first time in Kingston, so I was sooo excited lol. Anyways, we got to Kingston and Corey was being my tour guide on our way to Laurens house...he was showing me the prison and the army or military base, colleges, universities lol...it was fun. Then we stopped at the LCBO to get some booze...Ash and I split on the good old fasioned tequilla lol...then we got to laurens house. I think its soooo cozy, specially her room! But holy crap, for the longest time i was sooooo hott! lol. We called Jenn (my friend from Kingston) and we met her and her b/f Mat at the college...I hadn't seen her since like last summer so it was really cool! ^_^
We got back to Laurens and I was soo hot so I ended up opening her window and using an empty wine bottle to kinda keep it up, it was funny haha....We went on cam with Isabelle and she kept seeing me and Lauren have mini-makeout session....LOL she was like "do it again, do it again!" and making lil comments lol...annnnnyways...then jenn and mat had to go home because his mom was picking him up like i dunno soon....later on Lauren and I walked to the college to meet up with Jenn AGAIN. We had a good talk *grins*. I was so scared cuz there were so many people at the college when we were waiting for Jenn but I felt really safe with Lauren...so its all good ^_^
Anyways, Jenn showed up and we went back to the house and drank some more and eventually Corey, Jenn and uhhh Melissa? Yea Melissa (I got confused on which person was which lol), came back from their lil bar partying. They got kicked out of the first one cuz melissa (i think it was her) brought her booze into the bar lol...so they went to another one...anyways they came back and they were really drunk. it was funny...
Everyone ended up leaving eventually...Ashley was like asleep on Laurens bedroom floor...Alex was passing out on the couch so he went to bed...Later on me and Laure went for a walk...I got a coffee at Tim Hortons (which I don't think I ever finished) and then we attempted to walk down to the water but the wind was like reallllly bad so we turned around and headed back...then sat on the couch and then around like 4:30-4:45am we went to bed and just lyed there...That was my favorite part :)
Saterday we got up and played old school nintendo (mario brothers lol) for sooo long, then Lauren, Corey and I went to the mall (Ashleys foot had a blister on it and it hurt her to walk on it so she stayed behind)...I had fun cuz there were escelators hehehehe! ^_^ And it was very amusing to hear Laur and Corey talk about random mall shoppers when we were in the food court LOL! Then we went to see Melissa...we sat with Nate upstairs for a lil bit...he seems nice, but i don't get really good vibes from him so i felt really weird...Melissa was going to come back with us but she was too tired and stuff...so we went back and the house and played more nintendo....I went to Tim Hortons to get a bagel for Ash and I and I ended up getting a free hot chocolate YAY ^_^......I wanted a french vanilla but I was afraid to ask cuz the last two times I asked for one, their machine was shut off or whatever LOL...Lauren crawled into an almost fetal position in her closet, and although she looked uncomfortable she says it felt REALLLLLY good and comfy! We lied there for a lil bit...We ended up leaving later on at around 7:30ish. I was all sad because I just didn't want to leave, I was just so happy lying there being there....But i'm good now ^_^
All in all, I had a blast in Kingston!

We got home, Nelly's dad came and picked us up and brought us back to the legion where the lil family/friends gathering was, first thing everyone noticed was my hickey. I was like yeaaa its a hickey get over it, and they were all like...yeah kim, but THATS A HICKEY! LOL and we laughed...i love the feeling of a hickey in the progress and the after affect the next day *giggles*...short story short, (cuz my hand hurts from typing) I got drunk again with my friends and had a blast...Kingston was funner tho lol
Later Dayz
Kimmy xox

OH YEAH! I forgot! lol, Lauren fixed my MP3 Player so now theres more space on it and she put like a whole bunch of random (excellent) songs on it and I love it THANKS LAUR! *hugs n kisses*

All The Songs I Have...

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 02:06:36 GMT

I got bored so I typed out all the songs I have and now I'm posting them here...I dunno why, but I just am:

1 What A Wonderful World - Joey Ramone
2 Poetic Tragedy - The Used
3 Who I Am Hates Who I've Been - Relient K
4 Sleeping Pills -
5 Cool Rider - Michelle Phifer
6 I Hate Everything About You - 3 Days Grace
7 Forgetful Lucy - Adam Sandler
8 Uses Of The Word Fuck - Adam Sandler
9 Wouldn't It Be Nice - Beach Boys
10 Thunderstruck - ACDC
11 I Wanna Grow Old With You - Adam Sandler
12 Lip Gloss and Black - Atreyu
13 Second Heartbeat - Avenged Sevenfold
14 Lucky - Bif Naked
15 Always - Blink 182
16 Curses - Bullet For My Valentine
17 Everytime We Touch - Cascada
18 Who Stopped The Rain - CCR
19 You're Beautiful - James blunt
20 Leave Me Breathless - The Corrs
21 Lil' Red Riding Hood - Bowling For Soup
22 Bad Day - David Powter
23 Whip It - Devo
24 Love A Little Stronger - Diamond Rio
25 Romeo and Juliet - Dire Straights
26 I Just Can't Wait To Be King - The Lion King Soundtrack
27 I'm Blue - Eifel 65
28 Scary Movies - Eminem
29 Shake That Ass - Eminem featuring Nate Dogg
30 Sugar High -
31 Video Killed The Radio Star -
32 The Lucky One - Faith Hill
33 Can't Touch Me - Family Guy
34 Bleed Like Me - Garbage
35 Number One Crush - Garbage
36 Queer - Garbage
37 Thunder Rolls - Garth Brooks
38 Mad World - Gary Jules
39 Check Yes Or No - George Straight
40 Thank God I'm A Country Boy - John Denver
41 My United States Of Whatever - Liam Lynch
42 Why Can't I - Liz Phair
43 Heaven Is An Orgasm - Lords of Acid
44 99 Ways To Die - Mega Death
45 If You Wanna Be Happy - Jimmy Soul
46 Funky White Boy - Missy Elliot Featuring Eminem
47 Assasin's Tango - John Powell
48 Phantom Of The Opera - Nightwish
49 Fishing In The Dark - Nitty Gritty Dirt Band
50 Shout - Otis Day and Knight
51 One More Day With You - Diamond Rio
52 Streamline - Newton
53 What Hurts The Most - Rascal Flatts
54 Lesbian Song - Reel Big Fish (has nothing to do with lesbians)
55 How Do You Measure - Rent Soundtrack
56 September - Bloodsimple
57 Hello Adam - Saw Soundtrack
58 Noose - Sentenced
59 In The Garden Of Eden - Slayer
60 The Killers - Mr. Brightside
61 A Box Full Of Sharp Objects - The Used
62 I Caught Fire - The Used
63 The Taste Of Ink - The Used
64 Little Girl - The Wilkinsons
65 The Only Rose - The Wilkinsons
66 Just Like You - Three Days Grace
67 Wake Up - Three Days Grace
68 Scared - Three Days Grace
69 Big Blue Note - Toby Keith
70 Act Of Depression - Underoath
71 Boom, Boom, Boom, Boom - Venga Boys
72 We Are Not Alone - The Breakfast Club Soundtrack
73 We Will Rock You - Queen
74 Somebody To Love - Queen
75 The End Of The World - Skeeter Davis
76 I Don't Want To Wait - Paula Cole
77 Hit Me With Your Best Shot - Pat Benitar
78 I Need A Hero - Shrek 2 Soundtrack
79 As Lovers Go - Dashboard Confessionals
80 Float On - Modest Mouse
81 Be That Girl - Aslyn
82 The Exorcist (Turbular Bells) Theme Song
83 I Write Sins Not Tragedies - Panic! At The Disco
84 Every Breathe You Take - Sting & The Police
85 Emo Kid - Adam and Andrew
86 Old School Love - Divine Brown
87 Saving me - Nickleback
88 Photograph - Nickleback
89 Home - Micheal Buble
90 The More I See You - Micheal Buble
91 Hips Don't Lie - Shakira Featuring Wyclef Jean
92 La Tortura - Shakira Featuring Alejandro Sanz
93 Temperature - Seal Paul
94 Bloody Romance - Senses Fail
95 I Like That - Houston
96 Can't Get Next To You - The Temptations
97 If Its Loving That You Want - Rihanna
98 Walk Away - Kelly Clarkson
99 Ironic - Alanis Morisette
100 Cryin - Kelly Clarkson
101 L.O.V.E - Ashlee Simpson
102 Somebody Help Me - Full Blown Rose
103 Trapped - Full Blown Rose
104 Run It (Remix) - Chris Brown Featuring Santana
105 Put The Lime In The Coconut -
106 Tequilla Makes Her Clothes Fall Off -
107 Is This Real - Lisa Hall
108 Oh What A Night - Four Seasons
109 Sandstorm -
110 Electric Slide (Cha Cha Slide) - Casper
111 Eighth World Wonder - Kimberly Locke
112 Girl Next Door - Saving Jane
113 Under The Sea - Little Mermaid Soundtrack
114 Sugar Shack - Jimmy Gilmer & The Fireballs
115 Eve Of Destruction - Barry McGuire
116 Play The Funky Music - 70s Disco
117 Kiss The Girl (Techno Version) - Little Mermaid Soundtrack
118 Lucia Di Lammermoor And Techno Opera - The Fifth Element Sountrack
119 The Lion Sleeps Tonight - The Lion King Soundtrack
120 Someones Watching Over Me - Hilary Duff
121 Spitfire - Prodigy
122 Fuckin Wasted - Adam Sandler
123 The Happy Birthday Day - Weird Al
124 America's Next Top Model Theme Song
125 Dance Dance Revolution 7th Mix
126 Beethovens 5th (Techno Mix)
127 These Boots Are Made For Walkin - Jessica Simpson
128 Polka Power - Weird Al
129 Banana Boat (Dayo) - Beetlejuice Soundtrack
130 Pump It - Black Eyes Peas
131 Take My Breath Away - Jessica Simpson
132 Confessions of A Broken Heart - Lindsay Lohan
133 Rumors - Lindsay Lohan
134 Vertigo - U2
135 In The Light - Full Blown Rose
136 Baby Its You - JoJo Featuring Bow Wow
137 He Loves You Not - Dream
138 I Wanna Know What Turns You On - KC & JoJo
139 I Got You Babe - Sonny & Cher
140 Its My Party (And I'll Cry If I Want To) - Leslie Gore
141 Jump (For Your Love) - Pointer Sisters
142 Angel Of The Morning - The Carpenters
143 One Fine Day - Carole King
144 Under Pressure - David Bowie & Queen
145 Nothing But A Heartache - Lorrie Morgan
146 Then He Kissed Me - Now And Then Soundtrack
147 Brown Eyed Girl - Van Morrison

A Poem I Wrote...

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 22:46:49 GMT

I felt depressed earlier so I decided to write a poem...after I wrote it I felt a little better. Here it is:

Where Is The Happiness? .....

How do I understand something that can't be understood?
How do I relive my past to have a better childhood?
How do I forgive a friend for a mistake she shouldn't make twice?
How do I explain my pain but try to make it concise?

Why does the clock stop ticking and tocking?
Why do I speak when my mouth keeps on locking?
Why does this world feel still when its spinning?
Why do my days have to start at the beginning?

When will I feel good and robust?
When will I stop feeling like I want to combust?
When do I dance and try to feel jubilee?
When do I run to set myself free?

What should I do when I feel all upset?
What should I do when feel some regret?
What is the answer to an unanswerable question?
What is the cure for an uncureable depression?

Who is behind closed doors at night?
Who will tell me whats wrong and whats right?
Who will leave me and who will stay?
Who will impress me and who will betray?

Where should I go when I need a place to crash?
Where will I feel loved and where will I feel like trash?
Where is the sadness that won't go away?
Where is the happiness I want to feel everyday?

By: Kim Levesque

Quizzes.....

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 21:12:40 GMT

You scored as Goth. Your A Goth!

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Goth

80%

Rocker, Mosher

55%

Emo

35%

Prepy

30%

Chav, Townie, Rude Boy, Ned, Kev

25%

Skater

25%

Trendy

20%

What Group Are You? Chav, Rocker, Skater, Emo, Goth, Trendy, Prepy E.c.t
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You scored as Suicide. Your death will be suicide. What more can I say? Fact: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. If you want to know hwo you will commit suicide, take a look at your second highest percentage on the bar graphs.

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Suicide

100%

Posion

73%

Suffocated

60%

Bomb

53%

Disappear

53%

Gunshot

40%

Stabbed

40%

Accident

40%

Drowning

33%

Natural Causes

20%

Disease

20%

Eaten

13%

Cut Throat

How Will You Die??
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You scored as Sweet.

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Sweet

75%

Soft

69%

Exciting

44%

Shy

38%

Violent

38%

Wet

31%

Hot

19%

Awkward

What is your sexual style?
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You scored as Labret Piercing. You probably intimidate a whole lot of people without really meaning too. If people could just get past the many tattoos, piercings, and sideburns I'm sure they'd love you. Or still be scared, who knows.

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Labret Piercing

90%

Earlobe Piercing

80%

Cartilage Piercing

80%

Nipples

80%

Dirty Piercings

70%

Nose Piercing

50%

Tongue Piercing

50%

Lip Piercing

50%

Belly Button Piercing

40%

What Piercing Are You?
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You scored as Unipolar Depression. Congraulations! You are depressed! You know just how it feels to bear all the world's burdens, and the value of a 19-hour night's sleep. And you really hate that circle-guy thing on your Zoloft pill packets.

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Unipolar Depression

92%

Antisocial Personality Disorder

92%

Eating Disorders

83%

Schizophrenia

83%

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

75%

Borderline Personality Disorder

58%

Which mental disorder do you have?
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You scored as Blind Folds. Your turn on is the blindfold. When you can't see, that makes your other senses more aware... including your sense of touch. So who wouldn't enjoy being blindfolded???? Sex isn't sex without enhancing your sense of touch.

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Blind Folds

92%

Chains/Handcuffs

83%

Biting

83%

Whips

75%

Blood

75%

Bondage

67%

What's Your Kinky Turn On?
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What animal of doom are you?
Name
DOB
Favourite Color
you are a	a raving werewolf, who only wants to be loved

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